Hit by the reality truck

Well, I had had it all planned out, spend this week relaxing, having fun (between the various appointments), seeing friends, then a lovely weekend away before starting  the long haul of ‘Treatment’ next week.   Then......... a phone call from chemo nurse shattered my happy little bubble of positivity.  They have me booked in for a ‘tour’ of the chemo ward tomorrow, then pre-chemo assessment on Wednesday (no idea what that involved but makes me anxious) then booked in for cycle one on Friday......Ahhhhhhh.  Talk about a reality hit. 

So, there goes our lovely weekend, Black Pearl will be having her launch without us :-(  I know it’s not the end of the world, we can hopefully go to Plymouth in a couple of weeks when I’m over the worst and before cycle two.  But, I was quite happy to live in normality, and perhaps a little tad of denial, for another week.  I am not at all prepared to start this journey, not that I suppose there is anything you can do to prepare.  About the only thing I can do is cut my hair – even if I choose to try the cold cap (will tell you about that later) to try to save as much hair as possible, they still recommend you cut it short to help prevent loss and also so you don’t get clumps of hair in your mouth when it falls out at night (nice huh?).  But, again, I thought I had at least another week before the big chop but now I have to fit it in sometime this week amongst all the other crappy appointments!  Having a sad day :-(